As an artist and creative sometimes my rage is too big for normal sentences. In those cases only prose and poetry can loosen the noose of anger choking me and disallowing the passage of reason. It is then that I feel compelled to take pen to paper and speak my mind to free my heart. Sometimes the creativity is plentiful and other times it is just enough to shift me back into compassion.
Today I am grateful for my very existence, despite their efforts to kill me. See, they have been trying to kill me since ancient times.
I will defy you with my sheer determination to stand upright and straight-backed in the face of brokenness.
As our world has transformed from the industrial age to the information age, I often feel bombarded by ignorance and hatred. It is everywhere: Twitter, FaceBook, Google+ and it even seeps into my text messages. It is a laborious task to keep from spewing venom back into the mouth of the snake, with no care of its carnage. Then just as I am destined to succumb to the cycle of viciousness, I am reminded of grace, true strength, dignity and compassion. In those moments...I am saved by my art. So I write.
Today I am grateful for my very existence, despite their efforts to kill me. See, they have been trying to kill me since ancient times.
They have been trying to kill me since my name was Sekhmet, Oshun, Saarjie Baartman, Amarinta Ross, or Audre Lorde.
They have been trying to kill me because my voice is that of a light-bringer, a consciousness-shifter and world-changer. But I am still here. Maybe I won't be in 20 years, maybe I won't be a year from now, or even tomorrow.
But..today...I am still here.
The "they" that I speak of are the dark ones, the negative forces, the racists, the oppressers, the despots, the ones whose ignorance and fear serves as a guide for their actions and supersedes their logic. Them...they...those ones who know exactly who they are, despite their ever-present denial to my face. I will defy you...
I will defy you with my sheer determination to stand upright and straight-backed in the face of brokenness.
I will defy you with my ingenuity to create nations out of nothing and morph magnificence out of malevolence.
I will defy you by holding hands with my beloved on the streets of the elite and shattering your unrighteous laws with my joy.
I will defy you by reincarnating with perpetual greatness and evolving beyond your recognition.
See you cannot kill me for my Earthly existence is an illusion. And when your hatred seeks my destruction...I will defy you with my very existence and my will to be all that I am called here to be...
for whatever time that I be.
Shem Em Hetep!
Imani Evans, MA, CLC
